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For not being able to keep our tryst this past Friday, I sincerely apologize Herr Henry, I was really looking forward to such a rare opportunity.

Unfortunately, recent events prevented me from contacting you, namely, I was too hideous and short to set eyes on you.

I hope I can make it up to you.

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So you are in love with him?

It's better than what you could have looked like, Herr Greed was throwing S&M body modifications at me. Besides, Herr Greed was the one who dressed me and I wasn't going to complain. First of all I didn't mind the clothing so much and he was taking care of you and me, be grateful. As for the hair, you can wash away a style, pounds aren't so easy, you can't just wave and make them disappear.

I don't see how that's any business of yours!

Oh, cry me a fucking river, why don't you? At least you have enough to eat! I bet you've never gone to bed hungry in your entire life! Ungrateful bastard... You've got no idea how hard some people have got it, do you?

You're throwing it in my face, it's pretty obvious even if it isn't my business.

You'd be surprised, though I've never been a poor man as a philanthropist I like to know the people that I help. The difference between you and I is that you might not have much to your name, but you're self-serving...and even when you were a Homunculus, I imagine you didn't have much to worry about either...you were still self-serving.

That's how I know you're in love, just so you know.

I-I am not! I'm just saying that Lavi's a more trustworthy person than Greed, that's all!

Yeah, I had it easy as a Homunculus. Father provided me with everything I needed. And if I wanted something, I could take it by force or manipulation. Survival of the fittest, after all.

How can you tell?! You're drawing some really weird conclusions based on an argument that's not even relevant to the situation!

You seem so passionate about it.

So you get the difference, it's not that I don't understand what it means to be destitute, I've lived the life. You just can't hold my being born wealthy against me, couldn't help that, but I did choose to make it on my own steam.

Preferential treatment. The way you talk about him, the way you favor him, the way you treat him. You're not always kind, but he's different from every one else, he stands on a different platitude. Even if it's platonic.

You're imagining things...

Yeah, right. You only know what it means to be destitute because you got stuck with my body.

S-So what?! You get preferential treatment from Greed, don't you? It's not like people treat everyone the same: people treat the things they like better than the things they don't. That's how it works. Not that difficult of a concept.

If you say so.

I know what it means to be destitute because I've lived in one room huts in third world countries.

I don't get preferential treatment, I get individual treatment and you made my point--people treat people differently. You're unpleasant to most individuals, Lavi is an exceptional exception.

Only because you chose to as some kinda bullshit charity publicity stunt. You weren't forced to live that way due to circumstance. You only did it because you knew you could go back to your cushy home anytime you wanted. It's not the same thing. At all.

Yeah, you do. He thinks you're kinda like a girl, so you get some of that preferential treatment because of that.

...How about this? I stop talking about your relationship with Greed, and you stop talking about my relationship with Lavi. Deal?

How am I supposed to help or serve anyone to the extent that they deserve and need if I don't know anything about it. Even if I have a comfortable life to return to it's primarily about serving others and not just worrying about myself.

It's not exceptional, he's just confused.

That's fair.

You just donate the money to the organization, that's all. That's how most rich people do it. And in any case, there's no such thing as a truly charitable act. You "serve" others because it makes you feel better about yourself, and it makes you look good and admirable in the eyes of others. It's an image thing.

He doesn't handle gender confusion very well. And he's a liar, claiming he likes men, when you're the only man he's ever fucked, I'm sure. That makes you even more special!

If it was just an image thing then donating money would be more than enough to sustain my image. I wouldn't have to work so hard if it was just about the monetary aspect of contribution, but putting yourself into the situation is about something more.

I can't prove anything other than he gets a little antsy during sex and he doesn't like being topped.

It's still an image thing. You're a performer, right? So, you gotta make it big and flashy, where everyone can see it. You gotta be at the center of the crowd, something you can only get by puttin' yourself in the thick of it. That's why just donating the money isn't enough for you. You wanna see the looks on those people's faces when they're fawning all over you, eternally grateful for your "charity".

Like I said, he's too rigid about gender roles. He's got these set ideas about what it means to "be a man" and what it means to "be a woman". That's why he treats women different from men. It's all part of that chivalrous code of his or something. He can't stand the thought of being feminized, because he sees it as "weak," but what he doesn't know is that women can wield a lot of power... They just use it in a way different from men, that's all~♥

Those are the words of a creature who has never truly done something for the better of society. First of all, people who are starving or dying aren't exactly going to be fawning over anyone, celebrity and fame means absolutely nothing to people in third world countries who barely have enough to get by.

Like I said, I can't prove anything and it's not like it's that big of a deal, a little irritating certainly.

Why should I try to better a society that has always rejected me and my kind? There's a reason we Homunculi operate from the shadows, you know? There's no way that we can exist side by side with human beings. We're the next step in evolution. That's why we consume human souls. It's all about survival. Nothing more, nothing less.

You look down on humans, consume their souls, and then pretend that you're the victims because society rejects you?

You wanna know what alchemy's greatest taboo is? Creating human life. People have long believed that the creation of life is God's providence alone. They call Homunculi monsters because we were born through alchemy, instead of the union between a man and a woman. We may look human enough on the outside... but that's as far as the similarities go.

It was a human who created the first Homunculus. And it was humans who kept him captive and made him a slave because they desired forbidden knowledge! We were the ones who were victimized first! Why shouldn't I give humans a taste of their own medicine?

Because 3 + 2 does not equal 4. Even though human's victimized you, they are still the reason you exist so perhaps you should see where you are lucky. Also you can't generalize humans, blaming the whole of humanity for the crimes of some is wrong. You want to be better, then be better, because it's what you do as opposed to what you are in the end. Right now I can't see how you're any better than the human's who victimized you. You claim to be an evolution when your actions are as archaic as a neanderthals.

Forgiveness is more divine.

Fuck forgiveness! I'll never forgive the bastards who took everything away from me! And no one in their right mind would possibly forgive me for everything I've done while I was a Homunculus, and I don't care. I don't regret my actions one bit.

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lol he'd so get the wrong impression

oh god, envy is so awkward and tsundere right now

lol

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